To be honest, just to be 100% honest, I was on a 22 Day no Sugar streak:
But, I knew it was going to come to an end.
My mentality was off. I was grinding too hard. White knuckling most days until my head hit the pillow.
I had turned sugar into the enemy and was pre-occupied with defeating it.
I was less meditative and more combative.
I knew the walls would come tumbling down.
Maybe it’s good that they did. I need to re-group and re-establish a firmer fortress.
First, let me tell you how it happened.
I came into Easter Weekend, planning on being surrounded by treats, but also determined to overcome.
On Saturday, my kids went to a community Easter Egg Hunt.
I was gone for most of the day, at various sporting events and a round of golf.
When I got home, I saw my kids with their baskets full of candy.
I wasn’t even tempted. The crap candy they hand out isn’t at all enticing.
I don’t care about a Starburst, or a Tooty Fruity or any other Sugar sweet.
I like Chocolate, donuts and cupcakes.
Saw a Donut Lying on the Table
As I was leaving the home where I picked up my kids, I saw from the corner of my eye, a donut that was cut in half. It had raspberry syrup in the middle of it.
I tried to deflect my attention, but I was too obsessed.
I crept closer to the donut.
I grabbed the knife and edged off a small piece. I thought twice.
Than I let it enter me.
I didn’t stop there
Since, I had already taken a bite, my mind slipped off the cliff and I finished the donut.
Than I went home and started picking out of my childrens easter baskets.
I ate crap candy after crap candy.
I slept like crap, woke up feeling like crap and spent the next day in a sugar coma. I still feel like crap.
There is some salvageable takeaways from Easter.
1). I didn’t hide in the kitchen closet and sneak sugar. I told my wife what I was doing. I ate it in full view of everyone. I owned it. I didn’t feel ashamed.
2). I knew I had to reset my mindset from sugar being the enemy to sugar just being gross and making me feel bad. I’m working on a meditation and calming practices to get me there.
3). I did go 22 days without sugar. That was good for my body and for me. Not a record, but close.
4). I didn’t like the Sweets that I ate. It was too sweet. It didn’t feel good.
5). So, for 2 Days I slept and on the 3rd Day I am risen. Ready to start fresh and move forward.